I will not be able to relate all my thoughts on the Whole Experience here so I hope those of you who have enjoyed this will have questions if/when you see me. So as I take stock of the last three months here is what comes most forcefully to my mind:
- I would not trade the experience for anything. The group of friends I made and the experiences we had together were truly priceless. As is always the case most of the friendships will fade over time, but I truly feel in this case that several of mine will be lasting. I know most of you enjoyed getting to know Eddie vicariously and I find myself thanking God, to have been so blessed with such a roommate. He helped me to let go and try to enjoy myself, which is a part of my personality which needed coaxing out. When I would fret about financial concerns he always said "money is replaceable. The rest of this isn't". He kept saying it right up until we were both borderline or actually broke towards the end. Neither of us regret a dollar we spent, even if some of them went towards nonsense like overpriced drinks in clubs and cab fare for some girls we hardly even knew but who needed a ride home. To have saved or been miserly would have been doing Spain an injustice and I have Eddie to thank for pushing me in the right direction. I have him to thank for many, many other things as well.
- I had forgotten what schlubs Americans are. Within twenty minutes of stepping off the plane in Washington DC my eyes were assaulted by more sweat pants, tank tops, muffin tops and protruding beer bellies poking out of too-small t-shirts than I could comprehend. Say what you will about the Spanish work ethic (and I'd be among the loudest critics have no doubt), but the laziest and most carefree Spaniard would be mortified to have his belly poke out from under a t-shirt. He would never wear a simple t-shirt in public in the first place. Not even the children are so poorly dressed.
- I miss the food terribly. It seems odd because it was so simple. Nothing Reme prepared was exotic or extravagant. In fact, I miss the bread the most. I miss sitting down to a meal with a little basket of several fresh loaves sitting in the middle of the table. I miss the two most important words in Spanish: "A comer!" Reme's call to inform us lunch and dinner were ready. I especially the dislike the sheer excess of food in my own house. The way our society has moved away from preparing fresh food every day and towards pre-cooked, pre-packaged nastiness which Wal-Mart specializes in is a shame. More than that, there is ample evidence it is one of the key factors in our challenge with health and weight.
- I have had one siesta since I got home several days ago and it was glorious. I lay on the couch trying to fight and keep my eyes open watching sportscenter, and then I thought, "what the hell am I fighting this for? It's 3 in the afternoon, prime siesta time." So I rolled over and passed out. Dad rolled me over at 5 and asked if I was going to sleep the rest of the day away. He meant it jokingly because I could have done just that and nobody could have stopped me, but just the words themselves were so American. What, you're sleeping? In the middle of the day? What's wrong with you?
- Despite the pace I put on I inevitably ran smack into the "Oh christ there's so much I haven't done yet" wall last week. For example, and this is one of the big ones, I never set foot inside Sevilla's cathedral. I walked past it a hundred times, and ran past it dozens. A lot of the time even if I was running I would slow down just to touch it, just to have my hands on a building hundreds of years old. For some reason I never got inside which would have been as difficult as walking downtown with the intention of entering at the right time of day. I clearly recall the Saturday morning the school visit was scheduled for; we were supposed to be there at 11 to meet Judy and go inside, but waking up at 10 after going to bed at 6 was an insurmountable task. And hey, the cathedral would be there. I could always go see it another day. Right? Right..........
I'll be back to Spain sooner or later. There is no doubt in my mind that I must return and commit myself to a complete immersion in Spanish for one, and to visiting the northern coast for two. I may have tired of Sevilla towards the end, grown weary of the lack of novelty and unnecessarily overburdened with my restlessness. Still, a little part of me will now always call Sevilla home. I slept just fine once the temperature dropped. As we were boarding the plane back from Rome only a month ago Eddie said "I'm so glad to be going home to Sevilla." All four of us stopped and thought about it for a second, and realized it fit. Sevilla had become home, if only for a brief time.